Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Sitting waiting watching

Feeling particularly strange at the moment.  Had one of my 'flash migraines' earlier, took some meds and fell asleep (while Tia mercifully took Q out somewhere).  Now I feel spacey and kind of hungover.  Actively tossing around the idea of a 'sick day' tomorrow, though this one might actually be justified.

Spent the last 2 days up at SC in Vancouver filling in for sick calls.  At least that clinic is comparably close and I get to go against traffic both directions.  Plus, it is nice to work with other people.  I worked with a gal the other day who seems to be having a rough go of it with the charge up there.  It is a bummer, because I really feel like she is a nice person (though Tia says she no longer will take my opinions of anyone at face value because I get along with most everyone).  I admit that, much like the charge at MP, I completely don't mind working with them because they are competent and skilled, but I also would hate working for them at their sites because they adhere to zero patient standards (ambulatory and ability to self care are requirements) and let doc offices trample/bully them.

While I was working with the nurse in question (Julie) she was telling me she worked with a float (Diane) I worked with out at Mt Hood who, after what was evidently a rough day, apparently told Julie that "Bryan would just tell such and so patient/doctor to find some other place to go."  And it is true.  I also hear that from my direct supervisors who would love nothing more than to have me run the other clinics scheduling for that reason alone.  While I worked with the float at Mt Hood, I refused to perform a phlebotomy on a patient who couldn't transfer with even a 2 person assist.  I also have turned away patients who are otherwise inappropriate for the clinic, fired patients who neglect to show up or call 3 times, and tell doctors and their offices repeatedly that I cannot take their patients when I feel it is unsafe.  None of these things make me belligerent or fall outside of the parameters of what we SHOULD be doing in our clinics, however, most do little more than take the patients and deal with it.  Which is why I would have HUGE problems working at the other sites under those charges.  The big difference is, I would make it known instead of just dealing with it.  I am not big on brooding in the dark for long.  I prefer to eventually just have it out and deal with it.

That isnt to say I don't think I am a very accommodating nurse/employee.  I absolutely try to get my patients in when I have the availability.  I also take very good care of my patients at all sites.  It is a big of a brag, but I hear it often when I visit other sites how much the patients like me (this little old lady thanked me for being so nice just the other day and I got a heartfelt thanks from a pt at MH who I worked with a few times over the months who told me how much he appreciated my positivity and listening to him).  I take considerable pride in that connection with the patients because it isn't like they are visiting a hair salon or a restaurant, they are seeing me for medical conditions that are at times debilitating.  I feel like, as such, they deserve nothing less than skilled care, a positive attitude, and any measures I can provide to make them feel comfortable and at ease.  It is the thing that I feel separates the good nurses from the mediocre, and that is remembering that patients are people and not just a series of hurdles you have to cross to make it through the day.  Hell, I know I even forget that at times.  

Not much else on the horizon at present.  Spent the last few nights at various parks around us listening to summer concerts with Q.  I have to post my new favorite current pic of him running through the water feature during the last show.  Also took him to the children's museum, for the first time today.  Total blast!  He spent most of it between the toddler area and a room full of dump trucks and rubber 'dirt'.  Can't wait to take him back.  


Sunday, August 18, 2013

We tried

Having a small child certainly makes it hard to blog.  Honestly, I am only writing now because he is out with his momma (meaning they will be home any minute).  On to it.

We continue to try to find a place in Milwaukie.  We have had to kill off the idea of building or splitting a lot for the time being; too expensive.  Plus, too much time that we just don't have.  We found a lot that was dividable, but it turns out that means you need to get approval from the city planners.  They would need to issue a variance (which costs money) and could be even more expensive if they ask you to make improvements.  Then you have to contact water, gas, electric, etc and have those hooked up.  That costs money.  Then you will probably want to have, you know, landscaping, fencing, and some means of getting from the road to your house.  You guessed it, more money.  Long story short, even splitting a lot and lowering our overall cost by about a third still put it pretty much beyond reach.  So, back to the drawing board.

One of the main reasons we wanted to split a lot with Tom and Diane was an effort to try to create more of a communal/familial vibe.  Help each other out and work collectively on the land itself.  I am not writing the idea off completely, but it clearly is going to have to come about another way.  

Shifting gears, we are currently waiting on lab tests for our kitty Dexter.  Based on his initial lab work, they think he might have cancer.  Chemotherapy exists for cats but it is both expensive and of little value in extending the life of your pet, so it isn't on the table.  They can pretty much offer him steroids......and I haven't read more yet in an effort to 'keep positive' because I am going to break the eff down when I lose him.  Still hoping it is something simpler and correctable.

So much for floating less at work.  They changed the schedule after my meeting with Vicky to make it so I don't float near as much.  Well, they at least made it so I don't float as much through advanced scheduling, but I am still all over the god damned place when sick calls come in.  I spent a day at the Park and a day at MH last week.  I got a message to go to SC (in Vancouver) tomorrow and then I am scheduled for the Park again on Friday.  In theory this kind of shit should happen less once the other clinics go away in September (then it will leave our department with only my clinic and SC), but it seems like an interminable wait.  Maybe I should just be 'sick' tomorrow too.

Not much else of note.  Quinn has learned the pleasures of spinning until he loses his balance, climbing into his toy box (and any other box), making pretty much everything into a hat (including his actual hat), and generally just being a silly goof.  He is (98% of the time) a lot of fun.  He will wear you clean out, but we still laugh every day with him.