Monday, May 31, 2010

Memorial Day

I was talking with co-workers the other day when one remarked that she was looked at weirdly when she wished someone a "Happy Memorial Day!" I think I would have looked at her weirdly too. There is nothing truly happy about the day (remembering those that died for our country), but I am not sure what you say about the day. There are no cards (that I have seen anyway......I am sure they exist as every niche card market has been thoroughly mined...........for god's sake, they are making mother's day cards from your pets now) and nothing but rather solemn parades and flags lowered to half mast.

But, of course, there are SALES! Big big Memorial Day sales! Can you think of a worse tie in than selling merchandise (especially merchandise made in countries like Japan and Germany who were responsible for some many American casualties)? I was trying to think of a worse possible tie-in and was honestly stuck between selling reindeer jerky for Christmas or honoring GW for president's day. Tough call really. Anyway, I just find the whole thing weird..........and not because I am a flag waving patriotic zealot. I just, for the first time, really thought about it instead of just being excited to have the day off. We can truly turn anything into a day to buy stuff. Amazing!

House goes up tomorrow. Lets hope that we get enough traffic to warrant keeping it looking like a model home. The urge to leave dirty clothes in a pile on the floor will be strong. So very very strong. Must make the bed. Ugh!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Coming out of it...........er, sorta

Life is strange. I know that is trite and probably wildly inaccurate really. I actually can't think of the last time it rained brimstone or walked headlong into some mythical creature like Bigfoot. I guess a more true statement would be that life is infrequently staid. Rarely rote for periods of any length or breadth. For certain, when the waters are calm, there is always something roiling beneath.

I was thinking about it today when I was in contact with a few old friends and one of them remarked that, "I have a lot going on." I am not apt to disagree, but I also thought that I could scarcely remember a time when everything was tranquil.

In the last three years Tia and I have had near continuous tumult. I went back to school and finished it. She went back and decided the program wasn't right. I have had 3 jobs since I finished school (4 if you count temp work at PRE) and Tia has worked 3 as well. We have moved across the country twice and are living in our third place (4 if you count the time at her sisters) and have bought and are now selling our first home together (Tia had also bought and sold a place in Rochester and (just prior to moving out there) bought and sold a condo here. We got married, then spent our first month as newlyweds selling off everything we owned (she owned) to prepare to move back here, ending up the last week with no bed, no table, and little other furniture. I had surgery once (and was very sick at least twice). We have taken some lovely vacations including a cruise, some trips to Vegas and various places around Canada and Oregon and Hawaii while I was recovering from surgery. We fostered cats and adopted a few along the way. And perhaps most oddly, I consider this very stable. I am just as certain that Tia considers me moderately (fully) insane for thinking that.

And now, as I am better than a year into a job (great by my standards) and Tia better than 6 months into her own, we are both contemplating going back to school....after we sell the house of course. Then maybe another move, hopefully not across the country this time (or at least not somewhere so flipping cold). so, perhaps not weird, but certainly unpredictable. God forbid we didn't shake things up for a few months...........not sure how we would survive it.

Feeling by bits and parts better. Still overdoing it and then collapsing into general fatigue. But, at least I can breathe again normally (or what passes for such with my lungs). Small successes. Now what to do next?

Sunday, May 23, 2010

On moving

Perhaps there is something compelling about moving. There must be. With as much as I move around there must be some driving force, some joy, to it. I can't even recall the last time I stayed at one address for greater than 2 years. Had to be when I was living at home in high school. This, however, will be the first time I have a vested interest in the place I leave behind. Usually I only care that it is clean enough to get my deposit back.

I think the part I enjoy is the looking for new places. Being able to try out new locales, even if those locales are within the same zip code or city. Eat at new restaurants. Find new local haunts. Each time I move I think that I learn a little more about what I want. What I like. What I can't stand. The hope, of course, is that all the information eventually leads to something more or less stable and structured. But it seems to me at this point, the only stability I know is constant upheaval. It doesn't seem like much, but it is something I suppose.

But where does one go once you have owned a home. Once you have known true autonomy. Back to renting in our case. But now the expectations are certainly higher. No more ratted out carpeting. No more walls less than privacy thick. No more neighbors with either jacked-up trucks or souped up mid-90s Honda Civics. No more built-ins that should have been tear-outs.

However, before the moving part, comes the selling part. The process of finding a decent Realtor is not an easy one. Much like anything else contractual, you don't really know if you got a lemon until too late. Thankfully, their contracts are short and don't cost much more than time unless it sells. We decided against our previous Realtor. We liked her, but she seems a bit scattered for our needs. Too, well, immature really. So she was out. For due diligence we picked three, one via recommendation and 2 pretty much randomly.

#1 - Young and very Portlandy with her (and her partners) focus on Eco/green living. Kind of more urban. Far more tech. Far more inexperienced than the others. Definitely internet savvy. Downside: They are carrying too many properties and she is clearly more East side than West. She suggested we list the house around $315-$318K, with our break even being about $313K.

#2 - More veteran and clearly not very savvy about the internet (though people she works with are). Turned us off immediately by jumping right into talk about short-sale (we are in no hurry) and then essentially telling us we would be hard-pressed to get appraised out because the market remains so shoddy. We eliminated her as soon as the door closed behind her.

#3 - Same level of experience as #2, but with a more clear understanding of the market. The difference between someone who works in an industry and someone who is clearly still engaged in learning about it. She seemed a little pie-in-the-sky, but perhaps we could use that in this economy. We actually had to talk her down from what she wanted to list it at. Sees no issues in appraising based on local comps. Lives on the West side.

So, if it wasn't clear already, #3 was the winner by a nose over #1 (with #2 having lost her jockey out of the gate and promptly returning to pasture to graze). Looks like we will list at $329,500 and potentially (though not terribly likely) even get most of the money we put down back when we sell. Would be great, but we would still be happy to just walk away without pulling out a checkbook. We shall see.

In the meantime, the cleaning, decluttering, and general touching up is underway. God help us, cause the next how ever many months will be fraught with living so tidily it will look like we don't actually live here in the hopes that maybe, just maybe, the right buyer will come along.

In other news, I spent today (and last nite) with a respiratory infection (or inflammation, hard to say at this point). Lovely. Kind of overdid it cleaning yesterday and sucked up enough dust to send my lungs into failure mode. Back on the Prednisone train or, in other words, hello 3AM! No neb treatment though.........which really sucks because I need one to get my lungs started out right. Not a huge fan of Zoomcare. The are efficient, but though they state they treat asthma, are poorly equipped to deal with inflammations. Still kicking though.

Off to bed...........or at least lying prone with eyes peeled wide open.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Poop sandwich

Unfortunately, save for some nice wife related things (Tia has been on major cheer me up duty of late and even brought us home some Korean Tacos for dinner...........yummy good fusion), work life has been pretty dismal.

First, a job that I REALLY wanted, I was disqualified for right out of the gate because I didn't meet the minimum nursing experience required. This wasn't really a shock, but it was a nurse educator position and they wanted 3 years of experience as a nurse (I have just over 2, though the job has no real relation to nursing since it was more about teaching the new computer system).............but I do have, you know, an education background. The whole teaching thing would, I thought, be kind of an important aspect of the position and all. But, thanks to automated application software that weeds outs applicant, I didn't even get to meet with someone to discuss it. Bummer all around.

Then, the other clinic that I shadowed in decided that they were just going to post a part-time position and an on-call position rather than using staff from IV because they felt that they couldnt offer adequate training. Since I can't work part-time for my department and on-call would put me into overtime since it is the same hospital and all, it isn't possible to work there at all now.

Thirdly, they just demoted my immediate supervisor. Well, in theory they did. They told her, and told her not to tell any of us. Of course she did tell us, but management expects us to not know this. Then, to make matters worse, they demoted one of the supervisors at EH (they eliminated that position) and moved her to MP to manage us. Meaning, we now have one additional staff member to support even though we are ALREADY flexing and floating with far too much frequency. I am guessing that, best case, this means we will be doing a whole lot more of both things. Worst case, maybe somebody has to go (and I have the least seniority). The cherry on a shit sundae.

Finally, though not directly related, school seems to be far less clear since most programs, UP included, are now moving to DNP programs. Great for the future of the profession. Not so great if you are considering doing it. It is now a minimum 3 year commitment and many many thousands of dollars. Ugh!

Meeting with REaltors has been interesting so far. Outlook is kind of grim for sellers to be sure. Good thing you don't have to pay them up front.

One more day than a few off. I could really use them now.

Stay tuned.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Vegas Baby!

Some actual fun travel news to write about. How about them apples?

Tia and I just got back from our 2-year anniversary in Vegas. It was, as are most trips, full of roses and thorns, but mostly roses.

Roses:
+ Tia pulled the anniversary card and got us a first class upgrade on the way out. Free booze, a nice snack, and roomy seats. Nice!

+ Free Show: La Reve. Like most cirque style shows the story was confusing, if present at all, but it was visually stunning. If we had to pay for it (which would have been $141/ea), I would not have rated it very highly. More like mediocre with some truly amazing parts. However, since it was free: 5 stars!

+ Red Rocks - a nice, and relatively close, excursion away from the hustle and bustle of the strip. so nice and quiet and relaxing.

+ Gambling - as per our m.o., we didn't gamble much money.......but we were able to play for a long time, get lots of free adult beverages, and actually win some minor monies along the way.

+ In and Out Burger - I had heard about it for so long and was excited to try it. Had to go all out and go animal style as well. Yes, it was probably horribly bad for me, but no I did not regret it at all. The best meal, dollar for dollar, we had the whole trip.

+ Oxtail - In my desire to try new foods, finally had some oxtail in a little Asian place in the Rio. Quite fatty, but good flavor. Glad I tried it.

Thorns:
- Ride in from the Vegas airport - I thought I was going to hurl. As a bonus, the driver not only took every back road in Vegas (and the shuttle had absolutely no shocks it appeared) but we were the last stop. It was nearly an hour. After such a nice flight, this truly sucked the wind out of our sails.

- Check in - Based on conversations with the reservation person, I thought we were set up in one of the higher floors overlooking the strip. We did overlook it, but really low down. The person who checked us in was unfriendly and, though they noted in the reservation it was our anniversary, did nothing for us other than mention it offhandedly. Thumbs down for that Wynn LV!

- Food prices - Yikes! Even the buffets in the Wynn topped $90 for the both of us. Food isn't really cheap anywhere (save places with drive-thrus). Long gone are the cheap shrimp cocktails and buffets. Most of the drinks (were you to sit at a bar) at the Wynn were upwards of $14/ea as well. No bueno! Thankfully, we gambled enough for a free buffet before we left. Bonus!

Overall, very nice trip. For the value with our offer, totally worth it. Otherwise, I think we will likely be staying elsewhere next trip in.

In work news: Heading in to the GS clinic tomorrow. Might be able to do a few shifts a week there and a few at MP. It is under a different department, who is working with my boss to get us our hours while filling in there empty slots, so it should be a nice change of pace. More on that later. Still applying out for a few other positions as well (including one I am really crossing my fingers about in legacy dealing with the new EPIC program.........based on my track record, I am expecting not even an interview). Cross em.

More to come.

Thursday, May 06, 2010

Odds

Today was a sanctioned day off due to recent mental distresses at work. Much needed and much appreciated. There is only so much bureaucratic inanity that anyone can stand, and my limits have clearly been breached. Though, in fairness, I don't take long to saturate. I wish that weren't the case but, perhaps thats what compels me to keep shuffling jobs and to always focus on the next task and the next step, instead of marinating in the present. Clearly at times this is to my detriment as well. I don't often stay long enough to get to another more challenging level. I instead seek it out elsewhere and start from square one again.

I find that once the challenge of acclimating to something new dissipates, you are left with trying to untangle the ball of twine know as policy and my tongue gets looser and looser the more stymied I become in trying to effect even the smallest changes. Trying to wrest control from the micro-managers that seem to extract joy from the most inconsequential of things to them becomes unbearable and I just want to spew forth a volley of vitriol that would be, while momentarily pleasing, a HUGE mistake on my part. So, for now, I will just pack it back down and hope that school (both the chasing of entry and the actual education itself) will provide the escape I so desperately need and want.

Speaking of jobs, I would be remiss were I not to mention a rather disturbing interaction Tia and I had at the bike shop. We were there purchasing what I hope will be our bikes for the next 5 years or so (though not expensive, in fact rather cheap, in the world of bicycles, they do represent the most money I have ever invested in that realm), we got to talking to the two staff members who assisted us. It turns out that one of them had an advanced degree in theology and an undergrad in Physics and the other had earned his law degree two years prior. As they could find nothing in their respective fields of interest, they were working there. Welcome to the recession, where an advanced degree gets you $12/hr and probably a 20% discount. God I hope the economy turns around soon.

Back to cleaning, a more significant challenge than one would assume it to be while hopped up on Antihistamines. The urge to sleep is strong. So strong.

Monday, May 03, 2010

Chafing

I think we all reach a point of saturation where you just feel like, "If I don't get the hell away from here I am going to explode in some bizarre fashion like Michael Douglas in Falling Down." Well, perhaps not that badly, but you get the picture. Well, I have reached that point. Actually, I reached it some weeks back and now I am just limping towards the finish line. Thankfully, Vegas is on the horizon. I need it to be. I am getting to the point where the minutia of work is chafing me and every little annoyance is magnified beyond measure. You know, the point when you need a vacation. 3 more work days..........3 more work days. God help me.

Speaking of work, it is pretty much the same as ever. Definitely not helping with that break point. We have either been blitzed with patients or sent home. When we are busy, we never have enough staff. When we aren't, it always seem like we have too much. I wish there were some better balance mechanism. I either come home exhausted and aching or at 2:00. Must use this as my motivation to get back to school. Hopefully a few days away will help refresh things.

We are putting the house up for sale. Well, kind of anyway. Doing it FSBO style for the time being. Tia's commute is grinding her down and I can't blame her for that. If I had an hour plus each way, I would have suggested it months ago. Kudos to her for holding out. We are hoping to walk (limp) away without writing a check, but don't expect anything actually going into our pockets. I don't really care. I like our house, but we bought it before her new job started and it isn't so nice that you should be miserable most of the week. Plus, with my work schedule, I am not even home half the weekends to enjoy it together. So, perhaps a return to renting is best. Especially if school is a realistic venture. Shaving a few hundred a month from our expenses would definitely help things along. I guess we'll see. It isn't exactly a prime market for sellers.

I suppose I should rouse myself from my stupor and do something today. Having a hard time since I just feeling so wrung out. Baby steps perhaps.